Thursday, November 25, 2010
it's... 4:51 am... yet i still awake... at alfred house... it had been 3 days snice i went home to slp... i knoe not going home is not rite... leaving my mom alone at home is not rite... but i scare... i don 1 any more quarrel... i don wan any more stuff coming at me... i feel so sick... i at the peak liaoz... so pls understand... i booking in soon... pack my stuff so tat my dad can send home for me...
i'm sorry... i keep saying this... but it's not working... no matter wad happen... i wont let go... no matter where i go where i look there memories everywhere... those r the best time of my life... i swear i nv get those life again if u r leaving me... cause u r just as important as my life... i cant move forward wif u leaving me... i cant do anything wif our problem not solve... i cant slp every nites... thinking if there any way or any chance... wad i wan now is a chance to prove... hope u r giving me tat... tat all i wan now...
I,m sorry
Q.a.D =((
REALITY
4:53 AM
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
WTF!!! just go back camp to slp a nites... and ppl wanna steal my phone... wad else u all wan from me... i DON KNOE... i really don knoe... y is everything come all at 1 short... i cant take it... yet it's still coming... wtf.... i knoe losing a phone only... no big deal... when u have enough problem enough stress... losing enough things... i just lose too much... i don knoe wad coming next... i don knoe how long i can hang on like tat... i don knoe wad to do...
REALITY
8:16 PM
Life is going down slop all the way... I Nv though is would be so hard to solve... Nv knew tat is can cause me to be so down... Nv know wad is going to happen next... Wad is this?! Seriously I Nv been through this be4... If time can fly back... I sure I will choose the rite way to handle things... Is was my fault for being like this... But I'm doing wad I can to save it... But nth work... Tat the part tat make me regret... Wad I wan to do is not this... Is totally diff... Keep thinking of a way to save it... Keep asking myself y it turn out like this... Keep blamin myself y I did all those things... I having a hard time every nites... Thinking.... And tears just flow down... I tired of my life... I can't walk away wif out solving it... I not tat type of ppl when problem come den I walk away... So i just can't do... I just wanna be myself... But is so hard now... I lost in the dark... There no way out... Can some 1 pls tell me how I save this... other den walking away or don care... Cause tat is not me... Wad can do or say to change it... Pls tell me...
I'm sorry!!!
REALITY
1:33 AM
Monday, November 22, 2010
everynite my tears just flow down... i just cant stop it... losing a good frenz and family matters is too much for me to handle.. due to my fault... all i wan to do now is to save our frenzship... i don knoe wad to do or how to do it... i try many way... it's just not working out... i cause the problem to get worst... but wad i wan is not this... i just hope u understand... i knoe i go overboard... i don wanna to do this... when times come i just cant control myself... wad i can do now is to say sorry... but i knoe action speak louder den words... tat y i doing stuff... sometimes it may cause us to get worst... but i going for every chance tat i can... every way tat i think it may get better... but non is working... i only cause it worst... i'm sorry for wad i did... so sorry... i just cant handle stuff at tat time... hope u will understand... but i knoe hoping is not working too... i just cant think of any thing else... may time heals?? i don knoe so... I'M SORRY!!
REALITY
1:42 AM
Sunday, November 7, 2010
I done wad I wan... But it don seem to be working.. Wad else can I do? I'm totally lost.. Keep think and asking myself yet I still don get the answers.. Wad the problem seriously.. I just don understand... Did i really do something so wrong? If yes tell me wad is it.. At least I know.. I total blank now...
REALITY
8:37 PM
Friday, November 5, 2010
did wad i wan at last... ha.. hope i like it...
really just wanna thanks alfred and john for their help.. they have really been helping me alot... when times i not feeling good... haa.. looking for something for them but don knoe wad to get.. =/ any1 got idea?
REALITY
8:49 PM