ur bday coming in 2 days time... tonite alot come to my mind... will i be able to meet u and pass u the present? wad should i say when i see u? it just pop out into my mind when i closed my eye... haa... i'm just so looking forward to it... but i also scare tat wad i plan or hope to happen... will not come truth... but worst... there's alot i wanna tell u... but seem like keeping it short would be better... after all frenz last forever?
REALITY
3:46 AM
Thursday, January 13, 2011
was thinking alot today... just now went out alone... was like no place i wanna go... just ride around... ended up at 7-11... went to buy something to eat... it had been so long liaoz... y is it still in my mind? i just don understand... how can u make it look so easy to forget? but i just cant? ur bday is coming soon... thinking of getting u a lappy... but it seem impossible now... no money left... think will get u 2 fp polo ba... i still rmb tat u say u wanna buy 1 for me after u get the 200bucks... tat time u were like... die die also wan buy thing for me... i say no need... when i ask u y.... u say alot of reason... but now... it so diff... hey i asking myself all day long... how long more must i be like taT? i really feel tat my life is so worthless... there nth important left... nth else i wanna to do... i just feel like giving up everything... wtf... this is the first time i feel so much pain... feel tat is just to deep to forget... i think is just impossible to forget bout it...
CAN U PLS UNDERSTAND ME A BIT? I FEEL SO LIFELESS!!! U JUST LEAVE WIF OUT A WORD OR EXPLAINING!?
REALITY
12:55 AM
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
after all i wordless... nth to do or say liaoz... think for a long time liaoz... decided not to call u for a while ba... it doesnt mean i letting u go or forgetting u... i thought tat this would be better ba... i keep calling everyday when there no answers, think its also useless... haiz... but i know tat it would be impossible for us to be like the past liaoz... i can only hope the best for u now... maybe times will let u understand... hope so ba...
Q.A.D
REALITY
7:21 AM
Friday, January 7, 2011
wee ltr can enrol 2a le... 3 part and tp... weeee... hop will pass asap... den change change bike !!! (=
had a thought in mind... thought of buying ur something for ur birthday... and it maybe the last thing from me to u liaoz... den wont contact u for 1 or 2 months let u cool ur mind abit... don know if i can do it... knew it will most likely be impossible but still thinking about it... haiz... feel tat the more i hope the more i feel sad... like ppl say the more u hope the more u will get it worst... when i call u even know u wont pick, den when the voicemail thing came out, thought u answers. but its always not... wad else to do or wad else to say? so in the end our plans not of it work will come truth... feel tat i'm living in the past, maybe its too fun or happy not to think about it... hope 1 day u will understand wad i have done... tat day will be another happiest time of my live!!!!
Q.A.D =/
REALITY
3:12 AM
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
is life just like taT? y? i make an effort to get close to u... when i seem tat u all alone and like bored... make an affort to bring u close wif other so tat u wont be so bored? we once was so close... but now we r like worst den strange... wtf does this mean? i being usE? even my bday u wont even give me the face to come down? wad is this... last time no matter wad i ask u nia u will come... now? not even a msg or a reply... u know it will affect me so much and yet u wan to do this to me... i really don understand... y cant u just let it be or just forget bout the pass...
REALITY
5:28 AM
Saturday, January 1, 2011
its a new year... so wad? i don have to mood.... was think if we r celebrating it tgt... how will it goes? haiz... y do i keep thinking of all this... when is like impossible... i don know... i just wan it badly? haiz... hope u come from tmr... its like for u... just tat u don know... haiz... y y y y y y y y y y y .... y am i alone when its new year? y?
REALITY
12:53 AM
