wo hen xin ku... just feel tat u all leave me when i need u all the most... there alot to say... but u all don give me a chance to say nor explain myself... even if theres is a chance u all choose not to listen to wad i had to say... i know this i life... but y? is it like tat... there just no answers... i only know wad i have to do now... get a job and feed my own tat all... just to let u all know i don wanna to live my life alone... is boring... and i scare to be alone... i don mind sharing wad i have... but u all just choose to leave... so i ask myself wad to point of living when there no 1 to share wif? i just don know... thinking everynite... so waD? i'm still alone in this...
REALITY
4:29 AM
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
cant slp again tonites... haiz... i just know i going to do it... no matter wad... it may not work out... but i just taking a chance... ppl may think its toopid... but i know it worth it... so pls... understand... it just worth... even till now i don think wad u told me is the real reason... i don know wad else to do to find out the real reason... cause u r just not telling... i done so much... but still i think of doing more when things don work out... tat how important it is to me... i hoping so much... every day, every nite, every hour, every sec... i don understand how can u just walk a away like tat? u really don feel anything? i don believe... cause i know u r not such person... but i'm sure somethings else happen...
i just need another chance!!! tat all!!! SO PLS GIVE ME!!!
chest is still pain... don know y also... just had a strong feeling tat something is wrong wif my body... it had been months... 4-5? cant be bother... cause i don wan extra worry...
REALITY
5:16 AM
Sunday, December 12, 2010
y cant i be like u all... don care and let everything go? is it so easy to do this? for me i not... is like impossible... wtf!! i only knoe tat things wont work out now... but i going to work on wad i going to do next... even i know wad i do next is not going to change anything but i going to give it a shot... no matter wad... i will make it happen... unless u r back!! if not i will just take it as a gamble... since life is short... i am going to do wad i wan the most... even till now i don know wad the really problem... haiz...
REALITY
11:16 PM
Friday, December 10, 2010
just don seem to be tired... cant clear my mind... lying on the bed and cant get my eye closed... it maybe the last chance ltr... don know wad gonna happen... wad else can i still do or say... i really don know... just gonna bare wif it... haiz... pls don take wad important to me away... its too important to lose it... i don know y am i so into in... y is it so short? there no answers... y? y is this happen to me? y cant i let it go? y must it be this waY? there so many question in my mind... but there no answers... today is the only nite i cant clear my mind... haiz... after today i don know wad gonna happen to me... wad will i do after todaY? will i live on as normal? will it come back? will end it? haiz... i just to scare to think anymore... but it just cant get out of my mind...
REALITY
4:53 AM
tonites is once of the hardest nite to get through... i just cant stop thinking of a way to solve this... i just wanna say everything out... i just wanna tell u how important u r to me... i just wanna prove to u... i have change... but wad i need is ur help... pls open up and listen to wad i have to say... i just wan u to really listen to wad i have to say... pls... wad i saying maybe repeating but i feel tat in the past u r not really listening... if u were listening u would have understand wad i mean... so pls... just listen... it may be the last chance tomorz... i going give it a shot... i don how will it work out as... but if really listen thing will work out fine... trust me like u always do in the past... for now i don knoe to talk to u nicely or to shout at u... i know u don like to talk much... but keeping quiet it not going to work out... trust me pls... tat all i have left to say... i did wad i can liaoz... all of it is on u now... is not alot... just keep it a try... thing may turn out well...
REALITY
1:36 AM
Saturday, December 4, 2010
slacking at damp alone... it just suddenly come to my mind again... Was wanting to slp de... But I know I will start thinking... So decide to go out alone since going to start work also... I been thinking alot... And also for a long time liaoz le.... But still I think no matter wad happen... Something will work out de... Maybe time? or u will slowly understand... I don know to laugh at my own or feel sad... Cause I didn't know this will affect me so much... But still I won't let it go... Cause I believe it can't be replace ...
Q.a.d
REALITY
5:06 AM